Attention Reader: The post below was NOT written by me. This post was written by an anonymous blogger, and is being posted on my blog as part of the winter 2011 Blog Share. To read more about the Blog Share and see a full list of participating blogs, please see my previous post here, and please give a warm welcome to today's poster.
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I need a new job. I'm fairly certain of this. At least 95% of the time this is the way I feel. The other 5% of the time I love what I do. I've realized, however, that 5% enjoyment is not enough enjoyment to bring happiness to my life. I've become so unhappy at work that I've begun to not like the person I am while I am at work and often when I am home. It's hard to shake off the stress and anxiety for the short period of time between getting off work and having to go back the next morning.
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I need a new job. I'm fairly certain of this. At least 95% of the time this is the way I feel. The other 5% of the time I love what I do. I've realized, however, that 5% enjoyment is not enough enjoyment to bring happiness to my life. I've become so unhappy at work that I've begun to not like the person I am while I am at work and often when I am home. It's hard to shake off the stress and anxiety for the short period of time between getting off work and having to go back the next morning.
On paper, I love my job. I'm ideal for it. People say I do a great job and that I'm perfect for it. The time and energy I have to invest in it has become too much. Only one person has done this job longer than I have and the job has expanded a lot since she was in this position. The powers that be don't seem to understand the extent of what I do and how much of myself I have to put into it day in and day out.
I've been doing a "soft search" for quite awhile. Now, it's time to get serious about changing jobs. I'd love to stay at the same company, but there really aren't other opportunities open. I don't want to go into a position I am overqualified for, but at this point it almost seems worth it. I am ready to work a standard Monday - Friday 8am-5pm job. I understand most jobs come with some requirements for overtime and I can handle that. What I can't handle is the extra six weeks of work I put in last year with no comp time.
I can't burn bridges - as much as I want to, I know that would be stupid for many reasons. As miserable as I am (meaning I start dreading the week by Sunday afternoon and I often cry on my way to the office) I know I need to be patient and cope until the right job and offer come along. I just wish it would come along NOW!
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Thank you, anonymous blogger, for sharing your life/career decision on my blog. I definitely wish you the best of luck in your search, and echo your comments about patience - the right job will come along and it will have all been worth it when it does. If you're perfect for this one, you'll be perfect for another. All the best!
I felt very similarly for almost all of 2009, but I found my new dream job in November 2009 and am so happy now! I hope you can make it a few more months and find something else great! Job searching sucks, but so does hating and dreading your job.
I just changed jobs, and it was definitely the right decision. I wish you all the best in finding that job sooner rather than later. Your boss will understand.
I wish you all the luck in the world in finding a job that you enjoy. Spending Sundays crying is a definite reason to find something new. Hang in there!
Wow. I want a different job too, but it sounds like you definitely need to find one (I agree with lifeofadoctorswife that spending Sunday afternoons dreading the next week is a good indication that you need to make a change now). I hope you find your dream job!
If you cry on your way to the office, you DEFINITELY need a new job. No job is worth that kind of stress. I suggest you do as much networking as possible -- finding a good job is often more about who you know than what you know. Good luck!
That is EXACTLY how I feel right now!! Thank you for putting that into words and having the balls to admit it. :)
what a terrible feeling, wishing you a speedy job search and a great new job.
Oh, this was me for 2 years. I was so miserable at work it seeped into the rest of my life and turned me into a person I didn't recognize and didn't like. I was so drained of energy from work that I couldn't be bothered to job search when I got home, so I never actually quit. I finally just got laid off, and that was a blessing in disguise. Don't let it go that far... please find the energy to put some effort into job searching. Feeling that way about your job just sucks out your soul, and you don't have to feel that way. I have my own business now and I really like it.
Love you.
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